#251
The "Bitter" Truth
Over the years, I've had an on-again-off-again relationship with coffee. From being someone who drank one cup every morning—filter coffee, freshly brewed decoction in whole milk—to giving it up entirely, to navigating a mixed bag, I've had my fair share of dealing with the consequences of drinking varying amounts, brewing methods, and intensities of coffee. Or as I like to call it: "Coffeequences."
After quite a bit of experimentation, here's what I learned: Coffee doesn't affect everyone in the same way.
The Science Behind the Jitters
Here's how caffeine actually works: it blocks adenosine receptors in your brain. Adenosine is the chemical that builds up during the day and tells your brain you're tired. By blocking it, caffeine artificially keeps you alert. When you use it regularly, your body compensates by producing more adenosine receptors and reducing sensitivity to caffeine. So when you quit cold turkey—like I did early last year—you suddenly have all this adenosine hitting receptors with nothing blocking it. The result: two weeks of daily headaches, mid-morning crashes, sluggishness, and almost-siestas in the afternoons. I faced all these classic withdrawal symptoms.
But here's what happened after I pushed through: a tremendous improvement in my sleep quality. Deep, uninterrupted sleep cycles with perfect REM. Real slumber. The kind where I woke up not feeling like I needed more coffee just to exist. I also observed calmer sensations in my body overall—anxiety and fewer bouts of hyperactivity.
And thus I realized I don't need to be caffeine-free forever. I just needed to understand what it was doing to me and manage accordingly.
My Current State
Nowadays I don't fight it. Sometimes I have instant coffee mixed into my protein shake—less caffeine than brewed coffee (roughly 60-90mg versus 95-200mg), slower absorption because it's mixed with food, way fewer jitters. Sometimes I skip it entirely. No guilt either way. On days when I'm already nervous or tense about something, I avoid it altogether.
The real "coffeequence" isn't about the coffee itself. It's about listening to your body when it tells you something isn't working. It's about finding your own sweet spot instead of forcing yourself into someone else's routine. It's about knowing yourself well enough to make choices that actually serve you.
Self-care looks different for everyone. For me, it's knowing when to say yes to the morning ritual and when to say no.











